Today - I found my way........

Today, I found my way to work, it took me 20 minutes drive from home to Tuas West Drive - where I work.

For the first time in many months, I decided to take MRT (Mass Rapid Transit) to Choa Chu Kang where the company bus pick-up point is, and yesterday.., I got lost instead and it took me near two hours, mind you, to reach my destinations and after bout of giddiness.

Today, I am delighted. I have gone this far - 12 years and moving on... I have seen beautiful rainbows, displaying and producing magnificent aura to those who cares to stop and watch. Hot striking orange sparkling sunrise; the most awesome mother nature fireworks display one can ever witness. If I ever had a bad night; thankfully hardly, my morning drive to work would certainly and surely makes me forget.

As I drove in through the drive-in, I can see from my view mirror the calm blue sea, the palm trees swaying, dancing with the wind, waving at me. It's a beautiful morning.

See, how many people can actually say that their work place is a resort or like a resort.? I can! It reminds me of the beautiful beaches I have been to and the lovely people I have met along the way.

It reminds me of holidays......except I do not have to pay but get paid instead.

Parked my car, zipped into the lobby and back to reality. I am so looking forward to go home now.

Heartache

Woke up at around 4 plus in the morning, wrapped Dyna's text books by 5 plus, FB-ing, read, did the laundry, boil water, take some pictures - randomly and continued reading.

Accompanying Dyna is like, one minute here and one minute there. She reminds me of ME! - Bits of that fickleness. She cannot sit still for a minute, gets bored very easily, thus my writing again. Even my handwritting change every few words that I wrote. That was one quarter of my day. Haha.....

In the afternoon. Today, we reached KKH ten minutes earlier and all went well except for the valet parking part. I decided on a valet parking which happens to be FREE. So drove to where the attendant was standing, gave him the car key and went up to register so that Dyna's weight and what not can be taken before seeing the cardiac consultant. My mobile rang as we were taking the elevator up........surprise!! the guy called me to tell me, my car would not start. Period! What could be better than having my car stalled infront of two parked cars - you can imagine how furious I was, but no, I was quite cool. Called Uyop; he never picks up the call. Called his brother, that was when I realized how silly I was. It's the remote that always plays trick on me. Sickening remote control!!

Yucks!! but never mind...now, my car's done. The consultant told me that Dyna's VSD is alright and that we will have to see him again next year. The hole never close-up and good thing is that it never gets bigger. No surgery required..what a relieve. I pray and hope that she gets better and that we will never have to see the consultant ever again. I can only hope.

What happened? Queen......

Spenson, a colleague of mine was telling me about celebrities twitting like as if everyone cares how they feel or what they were doing...

What came to my mind was, if people do not really care what others have to say, then in my case, some people would not care about what I have to say, write, think or how I feel. This gives me the freedom to write, blog without being judged, and he is right too you know. There is some truth in what he said.

I miss those days when I can bring my camera along and shoot, write about it. My aim now is to get a smaller camera just like Ili's and my poor DSLR would be shelved and use only fr vacations or special shoot. I am still waiting for my wishlist for a good lens...so there you go, reason for shelving my poor canon.

Perhaps I want to be heard, I want to listen to my own voice - voices from within. You see, like the picture above, my needs are more like the Queen but in my own world. Called my mother earlier and my mother being a mother that she is, listen probably bored to death to what I have to say about what happened yesterday at Dyna's primary one orientation.

But what I did not tell her was, I feel so beat, and hopelessly lonely yesterday. From Uyop's work place, Dyna and I headed to Qihua Primary School for her orientation. Got her starter pack and was whisked to the school hall where the orientation was to be held. Apparently, I was one of those few parents who came alone. Saw an empty seat at the corner in the middle row of the hall, and so I thought...BUT this lady, ANNOYING woman...stopped me and told me off, that the seat was taken. So I went to the one that is vacant, two seats away from her. While waiting for the principal to begin her speech, I took a book out to read. Disturbing thoughts about that seat, whose or what? why??. You know what, the seat of my initial choice was never taken, or at least that was what happened!!. Never saw anybody, any soul and goodness what sat on that chair. Bitch..

Anyway, I will not brood over what happened in the hall. What happened afterwards were far more interesting.

I met someone; my regret was, I did not ask her for her name. She talked about her daughter whom in her early childhood did not know how to read and write well but is now in an Integrated Programme. This programme will provide an integrated upper secondary and Junior College education where secondary school pupils can proceed to JC without taking the GCE ‘O’ Level Examinations..

A goal springs in my mind. I want to be more pro-active then before in Dyna's primary school and learning journey... I want to always be there for her, read to her always and to shift my focus so that in future, if her options were to go to JC without taking the GCE 'O' level, this would be one path or route she can take. But is all about her choices and not mine.

Loads of stuff to do now...what is happening in the kitchen?